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aka, Why is so much wrong with you?
A friend recently asked me "Why is there so much wrong with
you?" Well, not a very polite way to put the question :) but
anyway, here goes.
I have some allergies. Specifically, bee stings, ant bites,
onions, berries, aspartame,
penicillin, aspirin, and sulfur/sulfonamides, as well as a
bunch of environmental stuff. Plus, a mild nickel/metal allergy
that means jewelery is irritating and I can only wear
non-gold/silver/titanium earrings for a few hours at a time.
Now, allergies and asthma are
caused by the same things. So, that explains that
sniffling/sneezing and asthma. As for the more specific
allergies, I have some vague theories. For example, I know I'm
allergic to sulfur. So being allergic to drugs that contain
sulfur or sulfonamides makes sense. Onions have a compound
containing sulfur. As does aspirin. I think my sinus
issues come from this place, as well. My skin is insanely
sensitive. I believe this comes from the same chemical
that causes my other allergies. So, that's what that's about.
I have some hearing loss, caused by chronic ear infections.*
was something weird about my head not growing properly (when you are a
kid you get ear aches
'cause your ear canal is shaped differently. As you grow, the shape
changes and ear infections stop happening. This normally happens around
5 but didn't happen for me until I was around 14ish, which is why I had
frequent ear infections until then. I don't know why this change
didn't happen to me earlier, but maybe it's linked in some way to the
fact that I still have some baby teeth. Seems my whole head just
didn't mature very quickly :) ) I also get severely car
sick. Car sickness is a middle ear disturbance, quite likely
related to the middle ear infections. So, that's what that's
I'm face blind. I also have very poor vision, I'm legally
blind w/ out my glasses. Neither of these seem to be linked to
I had pneumonia many times throughout my life. I had scarlet
fever as a child. I seem to recall something about scarlet fever
and a sulfur allergy being linked... but I can't remember what.
Maybe just one of the treatments for scarlet fever involved sulfur in
some way. ::shrug::
Depression/PTSD - due to some violent assaults, I suffer from
PTSD. I take medication to control this and my clinical
depression. I also have chronic insomnia and social anxiety
disorder. These things are all related. I'm very
clumsy. I feel 100% this is linked to the PTSD, which causes an
enhanced flight-or-fight response - I'm clumsy because I am always
ODing on adrenaline.
I have all sorts of headaches. Migraines, tension headaches, and
When my sinuses are giving me trouble, I get sinus
headaches. I don't know if all the different headaches stem from
the same place or what. My mother had migraines, and there is a
I have another chronic condition that I don't like to talk about or
name. But it causes many various symptoms, everything from dry
skin (my skin gets so dry it flakes off in patches and my lips crack)
to fingernails and hair that won't grow or breaks/rips easily, to
anemia, to shaking, bruising easily, all the way to liver, kidney,
pancreas and heart damage. I throw up a lot. I have
frequently tummy aches that means a lot of time in the bathroom.
I get random dizzy spells, nausea, fatigue, etc. The majority of
the "not feeling well" stuff is from this.
Then there are the meds I take for this, and for the CPH, depression
and other things. My meds are a balancing act. One raises
my blood pressure. I then need something to lower my blood
pressure. One helps my pancreas and damages my liver. I
need something to help my liver repair itself. This causes kidney
strain. I take pain meds and sleeping pills, more liver
issues. I take tons of stuff every day, to combat everything from
insomnia to nausea. And everything causes it's own fun little
I have restless leg syndrome. This appears to be linked to none
of my other issues. Nor does my shy bladder. I have 2 bad
shoulders, these are easy to explain, they were dislocated several
times when I was a child.
So, I guess that's about it. Most of what's wrong with me is
explained by 2 illnesses (CPH and the other chronic thing) and the meds
for them. There are a few random things lingering from childhood,
but it's really those two big things. So, I'm not crazy or a
hypochondriac. That's all it is :)
* I found out a couple of years ago that my hearing loss was almost
certainly caused by repeated blows to the head. The doctors who looked
at me thought it was so obvious it was ludicrous I didn't know. I
believed what my parents and childhood doctors had told me. In
this little history I didn't really get into all the physical injuries
I still have because of my abusive parents. I have trouble
sitting for more than a couple of hours because both my hips were
dislocated and my pelvis broken when I was sexually assaulted (this
also left me unable to have children, which is good, because I have
NEVER wanted children). My right knee was injured (in an actual
accident) and required surgery. Less than a week after the
surgery, my step-father hit me, very deliberately, across that knee
with a broom. It has not recovered. I've had broken ribs, I
can't turn my neck very far either direction, I have very limited range
of motion in my shoulders because they were frequently
dislocated. Several broken bones, but those don't seem to have
any lasting effects, I can't even predict the weather.